Sometimes it feels like the whole world is against us baby. So much has been going on; Losing Tia, the drama with me coming to the States, my hospital trip last night. And I’ve been up half the night worrying myself sick about you. I hate that he’s there with you and treats you like crap. I hate the fact that he has no clue that he doesn’t even deserve to be anywhere near you. The thought of him being anywhere near you makes me sick. I’m not possessive, not by a long shot, but you’re my girl. I’d do anything to make you smile, because I love you.
I know the doctors have told me not to stress, but I honestly can’t help it when he’s being such an epic fucktard. It makes me so beyond angry that he thinks it’s okay to treat the woman I love like crap.
The worst part of all this is that I can’t even send my woman flowers to make things more bearable, because it’ll just make it worse for you, and I don’t want to do that. I just want to make my girl smile.
I keep playing our song over and over, trying to remind myself that it’s going to be okay, and that I’m going to be the one who gets to fall asleep next to you every night when all this distance shit is done. It’s helping some, but I feel so helpless right now. I want to be take all the angry and the fear and the stress and the worry away. I want you to be smiling all day every day, and I want to know its because of me. Because you’re the reason I smile.
I just love you, baby. So damn much. You know you’re my world. Please don’t ever forget it. You’re the most wonderful, amazing, gorgeous woman I’ve ever met. I feel like I’m home whenever I think about you.
Sorry I haven’t been posting lately. You know that Tia’s been missing since Friday, and we’ve been searching for her since. But I do love you, and I do miss you. I can’t wait to see you baby girl
I keep seeing pictures on my dashboard of all these girls kissing, and I just really want to kiss you :( the wait is killing me
I love you. And I miss you. And today has failed so much, on so many levels. I know it’s only 29 days til I’m stateside, but with all the family drama, I don’t really know why I’m even still in this goddamn country.
Come and save me, please baby?